I tend to be very protective of my time. The kids are involved in limited outside activities, we eat dinner together at home, and we plan days where we have no plans.
I want to keep things simple. I want to enjoy the time I have with my children and my husband.
I want to be able to say YES.
When it really matters.
When does it matter for me? When the kiddos need a little extra love.
When Husband needs help with a tough decision.
When a friend needs an ear or a shoulder. When a neighbor needs a hand.
When God chooses me. When He tells me GO.
Man oh man do I still grumble about it a lot from time to time. Even when I have made time, the selfish, ugly bits make all kinds of excuses for why I shouldn’t then have to give it away. IT’S MINE! I scream it so loudly the inside of my brain is throbbing with the reverberation.
But at the end of it all, when the two year old temper tantrum is finished, I am left standing with a choice. I can focus inward or outward. My choice changes frequently. There are many times when I truly need to focus inward, take care of my own soul, in order to have the strength to care for others’. And then there are the times when I know what needs to be done. No amount of whining will change it.
So I put on my big girl pants and wrap my time in a cute package with a frilly ribbon, and I give it away.
And that, friends, is my treasure. A blessing beyond description. Never to be stolen. Stored in heaven, with no regrets. Not a single one.
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Our fearless leader, Dwaine is the lead pastor at The Surge. His experience in counter terrorism with the CIA prepared him for ministry and he likes dogs and babies even more than E does.
E (short for Eric Reiss) is the Wingman at The Surge and likes dogs, music, Mexican food, his wife Karen and his little girl Evangeline... not necessarily in that order.